Is it just me?

I was molested by a cousin about 20 years ago when we were both 'bout 6 and i dont think he really understood why he was doing it cause when we got older, around 20, he apologized. I never felt a hatered after dat. but it does contribute to da things i feel that r important 2 me in a relationship. I think every inccident contributes 2 everything that makes u, u. but cause i feel dat i need certain things from my signifigant other, he thinks it's not him n dat i need 2 let everybody know wat my cousin did so long ago. i feel dat telling my family after all this time is not wat would make me feel better. i think it's da type of attention i get n dont get from my boyfriend. da kind i do get is "who? what? where? when? why?" and going through my phone n my papers n da kind i don't get is when he's spending da day with his friends n i dont get a phone call just 2 say "SUP". but he dont get it. am i being too needy and wrong for letting an inncident effect me this way. do i tell?